When you turn twenty-five and you look up from the toilet bowl or the keyboard or the steering wheel and you realize that there is nothing where there should be something at the center of your life at the center of your body at the center of your soul, what do you do?
When you realize that the hunger you feel is for something much larger, much more substantial than a paycheck or a flat stomach or a cute boyfriend, where do you look for spiritual sustenance?

what do i do now!

i am seriously, seriously.. digging my own grave! ARGH.
and i am halfway done.

Summer: It has nothing to do with me. It is about you, and it is always about you, what you need, and what you want. You know, it seems you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it.

they tell you just to be yourself....and then they judge you.

it doesn't matter what his story is, there is something to be said about a toad who would rather lie and cheat than just be a man and end things. no matter what his excuses are, he is having a relationship with two women, which means he is cheating on his significant other and asking you to play a less significant role in his life. besides, there's a good chance he's not telling you the whole story. you deserve someone who is willing to give you 100% of his commitments, love and respect. you deserve to love and respect yourself enough not to play a role in a lie. 

you think you can hide everything.
you're so wrong. 

i think it's clear now. i know where i stand. 
i'll go, slowly. 

 SO ANGRY I FEEL LIKE MY CHEST WILL BURST ANYTIME. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! STUPID STUPID STUPID! UGH.

what do you do if you have more than a few close guyfriends and a boyfriend who gets jealous really easily? 
sigh. 

i am watching the last song just because it is based on the Nicholas Sparks novel BUT i really don't understand why they had to choose Miley Cyrus to be the female lead. WHY OH WHY? of all talented young actresses out there in Hollywood, why Cyrus man! i am so distracted by her weirdness that i cant bring myself to enjoy the movie. ahhhh, and yes, the male lead is pretty decent looking but even he has a weird, freaky smile. ahhhhhhh can't they cast better actors?! 

pffft anw, i shall continue watching for the sake of it.